Thursday, January 29, 2015

Gratitude

Just parted ways with my girlfriend this week. I am a little sad still as I reminisce about the experience as it seemed to fly by so quickly, but incredibly grateful for the opportunity to partake in a human romantic relationship and feeling incredibly fulfilled for the time spent with another. It was only 5 and a half months, but it's about quality, rather than quantity. I've been thinking recently that relationships don't necessarily need to last for any particular length of time, until two people feel they no longer align with each other, whether that is a week or a lifetime. For me, the important thing to take out of this, is my own feelings right now and to make sure not to suppress them. It's an incredible experience.

 I don't feel that I want to pursue another relationship just yet as I would like to take some time to take in what I just experienced and savor it and grow. However, I love myself and give myself a lot credit for embarking down a path that I previously was very uncomfortable and the result was that it was incredibly rewarding. I was able to see some loving aspects of myself and also some fearful aspects of myself. Both were illuminated within the relationship. But, I realize that I have emotional energy work to still do and will continue to open myself up to life in different capacities, as I have in the relationship area and continue to explore further.

On a side note, I had an out of body experience (OBE)  a couple of nights ago and I flew. It was pretty wild. Last night, almost happened again. I flew to my bathroom. My goodness, it was surreal. However, I tried to put my foot down, and I felt myself thud back into my bed. The buzzing feeling that led up to it, that encompassed my entire body from head to toe was energy flowing through my body. Lucid dreams and OBE's are absolutely incredible.

Anyway, feeling incredible love right now for this human experience and the gratitude I feel for the ups and downs that come along with it, that could only be experienced while here in these incredible physical bodies.

Much love to all for now

Sunday, January 25, 2015

I am not just my thoughts

The incredible, profound, Loving realization that I am not merely my thoughts. Hit me again tonight.

I've been stressing over new job starting, lack of sleep from construction noise on the street. While all of these are evident in my life, my suffering from it, has stemmed from the belief in what each thought says about it.

I worry about everything in life. I've been a chronic worrier since I was a kid. Just ask my parents.

All of my suffering caused by the identification and belief that my thoughts were true. That who I was, was defined by my thinking patterns.

Yet, I am the witness of my thoughts and yet, I am also my thoughts.

I am whatever I perceive myself to be. If I want to induce suffering, I am only my thoughts.

If I want to awaken to the wider perspective of Love, then my thoughts don't merely define me.

Of course this is only the tip of the iceberg.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Creating Change

A wonderful link from one of my favorite authors Neale Donald Walsch. I hope it resonates with you like it has with me as some friends of mine posted this yesterday.

The Little Soul and the Sun

Meaning, there is nothing bad that every truly happens in reality (outside of our beliefs that claim the opposite). Life is just an opportunity to explore and experience our nature through contrast.

I'm finishing Anita Moorjani's book 'Dying To Be Me' and it's a really great read and it made me think about how much is lost within our limited perspective in everyday life. How much we take for granted within our Loving experience. How we tend to be so caught up with our thoughts. Here's a wonderful excerpt from Anita's book on her new found look at life after returning from her NDE.

"Everything and everyone appeared beautiful, and there was magic and wonder in furniture, for example which had been with us for many years without seeming special in any way. After returning home, I saw beauty in the woodwork that I'd never noticed before, and I was able to sense the labor that went into the construction. I felt wonder at being able to operate my car again. I was in awe of the ability to coordinate my hands, eyes, and legs to drive through the streets. I was amazed by the human body and life itself."

Take a grain of sand. How often do we appreciate the incredible artwork of design that is....that grain of sand? Or a piece of wood as Anita describes above, and how the wood itself stems from another incredible expression of Being (a Tree) or the human body. The incredible depth of the largest human organ, the integumentary system (skin) and how there are gazillions of particles and cells that make up merely just a small fragment of skin alone, not counting all of the blood vessels that connect together to work synergistically in maintaining function of that area of the body and of the course the underlying organs of the human body which also work symbiotically to maintain homeostasis. Take anything in your experience and examine it closely. There's beauty at every level in the realization how there are multiple layers upon layers, upon layers at every level of existence intertwining with other layers all connected together in the web of Oneness to create what we now experience. It's only when we open up our perspective and are able to look at life through the wider lens where we can grasp more of the nuances/intricate details that occur in everyday life beyond merely just what our human senses can see in any moment.

And beyond our thoughts/feelings/emotions/beliefs about anything/everything, at the core, at every atomic and subatomic level and beyond, there is merely Being itself always there and only there. Nothing but Pure Love itself as unconditional as can be.

If you want to create/manifest change in the world, you don't need to go anywhere outside of yourself, but merely look inside of yourself and watch your reactions in re-lation to others. Your daily interactions with others are your tools to remember who you are and start making changes energetically by how you view and re-late to other people/things. Trying to save the world from the outside (physically) is good intention, but missing the point that all begins and ends energetically. Those who you view as your enemy are there for a purpose, so that you can see yourself in re-lation to them and remember who you truly are as your nature as it relates back to my last post below. When you remember who you are as your nature, you start to make the changes in the world from an energetic level from a place of Love. Change on the outside can only begin by change on the inside.

Your nature is Pure Awareness/Pure Unconditional Loving Being Consciousness which you can see by observing your thoughts/beliefs/emotions and making space for all of it to Be there. That space is you. Mindfulness is a wonderful practice. The more you realize that you are not merely just your thoughts, the more space you can create for your thoughts, the more Love you can see within your experience and the more intricate details you start to notice about anything and everything, outside of the limited lens of the human perspective. Widen those lens by being who you truly are....as Being itself.

Love is all there is

Friday, January 9, 2015

The Expansion of the Human Perspective

Awakening is not an event, nor is it something that changes you. 

Awakening is not the dissolution of the ego, which would be impossible while experiencing through a human vehicle.

Awakening IS the expansion of the human perspective. The human perspective is merely BEING, itself, expressing itself as a human. Therefore, the ego is not a static, separate entity that exists. It's merely YOU, believing yourself to only be a body/mind and therefore taking on the beliefs/thoughts of that body/mind.  

Awakening is the realization that all of the things you never knew existed, seem to come into your own awareness. Granted, nothing changed, and awareness is not YOUR awareness. The world was always there exactly as it is. It was merely a matter of your willingness to see it. The more you expand and open up and allow in your experience, the more you see that separation was the ultimate illusion. The more you see that, that, which seems different than you, is not really different, outside of the thoughts/beliefs which claim so.

Everyone wants to rid themselves of Ego. Newsflash. Ego is not something you can rid yourself of. Ego merely means "limited perspective". Therefore dissolving the Ego merely means expanding your perspective. Expand your perspective by taking notice of your reactions to life, especially in your interactions with other people. Are you reacting from Love? Are you reacting from fear? If you feel threatened by a certain situation, person, topic, it could be that you are holding unconsciously to a belief. The only way to see through the belief is to make it known by the light of your Awareness. To lovingly embrace it as you embrace your fears in the same way.   

 Being is already being itself in every drop of matter from the smallest particle to larger organisms and beyond. So, separation is only a temporary appearance while experiencing through the human vehicle. 

Awakening is the realization that your perspective is only your perspective and holds no more weight than my perspective or my neighbor's perspective. We're all co-equals. We're all just BEING itself floundering around in these human expressions trying to be perfect, when perfection is already our nature, which is why we chose humanness to experience what it's like NOT to be perfect and finding the perfection within the seeming imperfection, of not only our own perspectives, but other people's perspectives. 

Stop fighting so much with your neighbor and understand that we're all the same one Consciousness. Understand that my perspective is limited just like yours. Understand that my life conditions and experiences have led me to perceive the world in the way I do, just like your experiences have done for you. Understand that I, like you, don't have all of the answers to the Cosmic jigsaw puzzle while experiencing through this human vehicle. Meaning, experiencing from this limited vehicle of humanness, I can't see the greater perspective of totality, nor can I understand why things happen the way they do, other than through the manifestation of cause and effect that we all operate under, and neither can you. Embracing your neighbor/enemy/friend/co-worker's perspective, even if you vehemently disagree, means you're on the first step to shedding the layers of limitation of what we call.....the Ego.

It's like having a bias towards a particular actor for your whole life and refusing to see a certain movie because that actor stars in it. Until one day, you are forced to see that movie and you realize what an incredible film it actually is. Yet, all of this time, you limited yourself from seeing it because of your biased beliefs about a particular actor. This is awakening. this is 'dissolving' the ego. There is nothing separate that is actually dissolving. It's just YOU, willingly embracing that which has always been there (the actor and the movie) and allowing that 'different perspective' to finally be lovingly embraced by you.

It's not about getting rid of likes/dislikes and becoming robots. It's simply about opening up to embrace that which we used to fear.

You hate someone from another race/religion/political orientation? Fine. Try spending some time with a person from another race/religion/political orientation and watch your own reactions to these people. Is it them that causes the reactions in YOU, or is it merely you, yourself that has the problem based on a preconceived notion you had about these people?

Can you embrace the fact that a black/white person other than their skin color and their life experiences is absolutely no different than you, yourself outside of the belief that claims as such?

Can you embrace the fact that a democrat or republican other than their life experiences is really no different than you, outside of the belief that claims how things should/should not be?

Same with religion. You hate a particular religion? Ok, can you embrace the fact that even for the most radical of religious fundamentalists, that just PERHAPS, they, in their humanness have misinterpreted their own teachings into what they possibly believed it to be, just like other religions have done with the bible?

When you come to see that everyone's experiences shape their own perceptions and perspectives, you come to see that there really is nothing actually separate than you, other than your own interpretations of others. You don't have to AGREE with another perspective. But, embracing it in your own capacity, in your own Awareness, breaks down the walls of the ego and you come to see that separation seems more and more of an illusion. There's only Awareness. Not MY Awareness. Not YOUR Awareness. Merely....Awareness. And within that Awareness, each of us will perceive the world the way our beliefs shape us.

That's all for now.

Much love to all

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Expansion/Contraction

The Universe is set up in a way where life and death are constants from every level of being in fractal patterns as within, as without, as above, so below. Expansion followed by Contraction.

Stars are born, stars are destroyed. Planets are born. Planets are destroyed. Galaxies are born. Galaxies are destroyed. Going fractally smaller....Humans are born. Humans die. Cells are born. Cells die. Particles are born. Particles are destroyed. Virus/Bacteria are born and as well are destroyed. Animals are born. Animals die. Plants are born. Plants die. Look in Nature and you will see this same pattern at every level of existence and it follows with seasons as well. Spring is a time of birth and Summer a time of life and expansion, while Autumn is a time of contraction and Winter a time of death (such as the bare trees).

This pattern of life and death is happening at an even greater scale. The Big Bang is how the universe expanded initially and will eventually collapse in the far future and then will re-expand and once again contract in an ongoing cycle for however long it should go on. (Roger Penrose's theory). Expansion/Contraction again. 

Consider the idea that Source Awareness designed the Universe with these patterns in mind, so that all experiences are temporary. All experiences will come and all will eventually leave. That's the whole point. Nothing is meant to last. Everything is temporary including the vehicle you are renting (your body) for this journey on the physical plane. Just like a dream seems ever so real while it's happening, until we awaken and see that it was just a dream. 

Therefore, life and death are an inherent, integral part to our existence on this physical plane of Being. Life is expansion and death is contraction. Opening up to life is expansion and fear is contraction. 

The only constant is your existence as Being itself. Existence itself. Love itself. Every experience comes and every experience goes. The buddhist notion of impermanence is right in line with this. 

Therefore, the illusion that we must cling and hold on to life is merely going against the nature of the Universe as it is and going against your own nature as Being. It's the illusion that we are separate Beings in a Universe of competition which leads to the fear of clinging to experiences. 

Next post will be on the illusion of separation and thought. Too late now. Too cold here in NY. 

Much love to all. 

Thursday Night Somatic Journey

This ache, this yearning. This familiar pain right here in the middle of my abdomen. It burns across my chest and it feels like my chest is ...